Apr 08 2009
The Things I Miss As I Get Older

I will turn 52 in December and the amount of time I spend thinking about the fact that I am almost a senior citizen is unbelievable. I have even gone to a few restaurants and been given the discount senior menu. I had to laugh, and feel sorry for the poor wait person when I tell them that I’m quite there. Not that I would have minded a discount but….
I find myself thinking about when I was younger and all the things I did. I used to go camping, didn’t like sleeping on the ground so much, but the comaraderie of it was fun. I used to love just walking around the mall and window shopping, Christmas at the mall was especially fun. I miss my children being small, but I am reliving that with my granddaughter to some extent, let me tell you, being a grandparent rocks!
We really need a vacation, but aside from not having the money for it, most of the places we would go,requires a lot of walking, and the prospect of that hurts just thinking about it. We can walk, but the pain in the back gets so bad after awhile, it’s impossible to enjoy the sights you are looking at.
I was a hairstylist for 2 years and I really miss that, I miss the family atmosphere of the salon I worked in for 16 years, I even owned that salon for 3 years, that’s how much I liked it there! I can no longer do hair because with Rheumatoid Arthritis, it is hard to stand for long periods of time and to hold my arms up. My hands often hurt so bad, I can barely grip my hair brush for my own hair so it would be difficult for me to be reliable as a hairstylist, so I now work as an administrative assistant (when I actually have a job).
The hardest part of getting older and being very overweight, is that I don’t feel pretty anymore. I look in the mirror and to be honest, I see my mother. I do my hair and put on my make up and try to wear stylish clothes and jewelry, but I just don’t think I am even “a nice looking woman for my size” as I used to be told. Don’t get me wrong, my husband tells me daily that he loves me and that he thinks I am beautiful, but love is blind as they say. Maybe it’s just me, I don’t know.
My husband went in for his orientation for gastric bypass surgery last week and I went with him. He has his first consultation with the doctor on the 17th ( I think). I am very excited to see how he does with this. I will be having my surgery probably in 2010 because I want him to be all healed and well on his way to weight loss by then. I think losing a bunch of weight will make me feel prettier and possibly not so old. I know it’s not a magical cure and I know it won’t be easy. Some thin, Ignorant people have said that surgery is the easy way out, but it really isn’t. You have to give up actual food for a while and opt for protien shakes in a thimble sized cup at first. I don’t know how long a person go without actually chewing before gnawing off his own hand, but I guess it works because many people have had good results, we’ll see. My hardest part will be giving up diet soda, I’m pretty much an addict of that. Oh well time will tell.
I guess that’s enough whining for now. I’ll see ya on the flipside! Happy Blogging!


I know who are 10, 20, 30 pounds over what the fashion magazines say they should weigh complain about their weight. My daughter has about 20 pounds, along with a little belly, and all she does is worry about her weight! I think me need to pay less attention to the bathroom scale, and more attention to living our lives without fear something so trivial. The most important thing is to feel good, and live a healthy, happy life. So what are you waiting for?? Stop worrying about whether or not you’ll fit in to that tiny bikins, Go have some fun!







