fattyprejudice

As I grow older, I find myself thinking of how I had pictured  my life would be.  I saw myself living in a nice home with big yard, a home that my children and grandchildren would look forward to visiting.  I thought that I would be the best grandma in the world,  full of patience and energy so that I could keep up with my active 3 year old granddaughter.  I thought I would be healthy, traveling in a motor home, living the good life that I had worked so hard for and deserved.
As I grow older I think of all the things I could have done differently like finishing college and working part time at something I love  and having  retirement money put away for my future.

As I grow older, I see the bleak reality of how things really are.  I live in an apartment with too little space where college students play their music too loud and the police come to break up a  party that just won’t end!  I have diabetes & Rheumatoid Arthritis, am overweight and have high blood pressure and I have no energy.  I have no job for reasons that I believe are stated above.  My husband has been furloughed from his job at the railroad for almost a year now, his unemployment benefit is ending in February and we are barely getting by.  if it wasn’t for his family helping us, I truly believe we would be homeless.

This is not what I had visualized my life would be like, As I grew older.  The upside is that we have our beautiful, if not overly active granddaughter, my 2 kids who love me and lets not forget the thing that all older people seem to have, our cats.  AND, I’m breathing, and I AM growing older.  :)  Have a great day!

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